My Generation and Money: Why I think my generation will become savers instead of spenders.
Let me clarify "My Generation." I'm 28, so I think anyone in the 23 (old enough to have to pay their own bills) to 33 (didn't have parents that went through the depression) age range is about right.
Due to the tough financial times, many of us have had to deal with situations less than ideal. The tough times are not only effecting us today, but even when we recover, we (the U.S.) will be a different nation. New rules and regulations will be in place and we will probably still be paying back that enormous debt that has been accrued in the past year. We will become a nation of savers.
My generation has never had to deal with NOT having money. Granted, it might not have been OUR money to begin with, but we had whatever we want, be it financed through credit cards or loans or whatever. We have never been taught how to conserve money. Hey, I'm grouped right in there...I've bought whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted, and have the credit card bills to prove it.
Here what I think happened: (I'm sure this isn't the case for every situation but I am generalizing)
If I look at my family, I can see how I got to be where I am today. It's funny how looking back on things makes so much more sense...the "hindsight's 20/20" thing... Anyway, my great-grandparents went through the depression and no electricity/running water era. Not only did they not have much to begin with, they couldn't afford to buy anything either. Then, they had children, and their children got to go through the war era, where, again, they learned about hard work and hard times.
Then, they had children, my parents generation, who other than Vietnam, didn't really go through a tough time. However, their parents had lived through all that and didn't splurge on the children. Vacations were rare and they still saved and lived frugally. The children did not understand that thinking since there were not bad times. They grew up to become a generation that had to have better than their parents. AND they wanted better for their children. The "keeping up with the Jones" began.
So then we come to my generation. If anyone else is like me, I grew up with basically everything I needed and wanted. We weren't given allowances because helping around the house was expected, but in return, we pretty much got what we wanted, so we didn't need our own money. We had savings accounts, but I blew most of mine, leaving 500 dollars for college. (WOOHOO! lol!) If my parents struggled, they never let us know about it. We were able to do all the activities we wanted and just basically was spoiled, not saying that's a bad thing =)
So through the years, the generations have created people who get what they want. Now, we are going through a time when we have what we want, but can't afford to pay for it, even the minimum credit card payments are too much for some people. We can't afford to go on vacations, or go anywhere. We cook at home and stay at home. "Cheap" things are back in style. There's at least one article a day on the internet on "Ways to Save Money" or some variation thereof. And when we can't do all the things we think we want to do and can't have all the things we think we should have, something wierd happens.....we become a family...we spend more time with the people we love and learn to save money and manage money like we have never been taught in our life.
It's a long hard road, but in the end, good things come out of bad times.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
My son, the food allergy child
I feel strongly motivated to write about my son, Aiden and our struggle with food allergies. He is allergic to milk, wheat, and eggs. Obviously that eliminates all the good things to eat in life. We found this out a year and a half ago from an allergy test after Aiden struggled with severe eczema (thanks to his wonderful genes from his mother) and his tendency to break out in hives for no reason. The child lived on benadryl for a good month.
I can remember the day the nurse called me to tell me the allergy test results. As soon as she said wheat, I said "Holy sh*t!" (not meaning to cuss, but it was a reflex reaction) and my heart sank even further as she called off eggs, and milk. He is also allergic to cats and 3 different kinds of grasses (which he gets from his mom and dad since we are both allergic to grass.)
It broke my heart. At first, I felt angry. It's not fair that a child has to go through so much so young. Then it was basically numbness. It's hard to figure out what to do. You look back and feel like you failed your child because you let him have all these foods that he is allergic to and caused all his reactions. The first year was just survival. We had to figure out what we COULD give him, since the list of things he couldn't eat kept getting longer by the day.
Now we have been on an active hunt for all things allergen free. It hasn't been easy. Most things you find are free of wheat/gluten, but contain egg, or the reverse. And you find yourself looking at the ingredients of EVERYTHING. You never know what's really in some of the foods you eat. Our most recent mistake: hashbrowns. You would think they would only have potatoes in it.....not these, they contain wheat flour. One more thing on the list that we can't buy for Aiden.
People always ask me well, what DOES he eat? I usually reply, not much. He is such a picky eater anyway, and put that on top of everything else and our list gets much smaller: chicken, pork, some beef (he doesn't like steak or hamburgers, but will eat hamburger meat if it's in like sauce or something), tater tots, french fries, LOTS of rice, corn, green beans, carrots, applesauce, apples, sometimes bananas, Nature Valley Honey and Oat granola bars, rice pasta (found this at corner market), rice spaghetti noodles (found on the coast at an asian grocery store), sometimes oatmeal, sometimes grits, catfish, spam, vienna sausages, broccoli, califlower, oranges, corn or potato chips.
We have a hard time getting him to eat healthy foods. He is just like the rest of us...most of us can eat the healthy stuff for a time, but at some point we just need some grease! Especially those of us living in the south. I feel like we are giving him so much processed food that can't be good for him, but we have limited choices, so it makes it hard.
The biggest event has happen today for me on this issue. I receive a newsletter every week from Kids with Food Allergies organization. In this week's newsletter, there was an add for wheat, milk, egg, allergen free chicken nuggets. So I clicked on it, and what do you know.. they have PIZZA.. allergen-free PIZZA. If you only knew how much Aiden loves pizza, but how bad of a reaction he has from it... So I found a local place that sells it and will be visiting there sometime this week.
Anyway, I just wanted to say all of this to say that I wish people would support the effort to solve the riddle of food allergies. My child is fairly lucky. I know some children that are allergic to much much more. One day, I hope they find a cure.
I can remember the day the nurse called me to tell me the allergy test results. As soon as she said wheat, I said "Holy sh*t!" (not meaning to cuss, but it was a reflex reaction) and my heart sank even further as she called off eggs, and milk. He is also allergic to cats and 3 different kinds of grasses (which he gets from his mom and dad since we are both allergic to grass.)
It broke my heart. At first, I felt angry. It's not fair that a child has to go through so much so young. Then it was basically numbness. It's hard to figure out what to do. You look back and feel like you failed your child because you let him have all these foods that he is allergic to and caused all his reactions. The first year was just survival. We had to figure out what we COULD give him, since the list of things he couldn't eat kept getting longer by the day.
Now we have been on an active hunt for all things allergen free. It hasn't been easy. Most things you find are free of wheat/gluten, but contain egg, or the reverse. And you find yourself looking at the ingredients of EVERYTHING. You never know what's really in some of the foods you eat. Our most recent mistake: hashbrowns. You would think they would only have potatoes in it.....not these, they contain wheat flour. One more thing on the list that we can't buy for Aiden.
People always ask me well, what DOES he eat? I usually reply, not much. He is such a picky eater anyway, and put that on top of everything else and our list gets much smaller: chicken, pork, some beef (he doesn't like steak or hamburgers, but will eat hamburger meat if it's in like sauce or something), tater tots, french fries, LOTS of rice, corn, green beans, carrots, applesauce, apples, sometimes bananas, Nature Valley Honey and Oat granola bars, rice pasta (found this at corner market), rice spaghetti noodles (found on the coast at an asian grocery store), sometimes oatmeal, sometimes grits, catfish, spam, vienna sausages, broccoli, califlower, oranges, corn or potato chips.
We have a hard time getting him to eat healthy foods. He is just like the rest of us...most of us can eat the healthy stuff for a time, but at some point we just need some grease! Especially those of us living in the south. I feel like we are giving him so much processed food that can't be good for him, but we have limited choices, so it makes it hard.
The biggest event has happen today for me on this issue. I receive a newsletter every week from Kids with Food Allergies organization. In this week's newsletter, there was an add for wheat, milk, egg, allergen free chicken nuggets. So I clicked on it, and what do you know.. they have PIZZA.. allergen-free PIZZA. If you only knew how much Aiden loves pizza, but how bad of a reaction he has from it... So I found a local place that sells it and will be visiting there sometime this week.
Anyway, I just wanted to say all of this to say that I wish people would support the effort to solve the riddle of food allergies. My child is fairly lucky. I know some children that are allergic to much much more. One day, I hope they find a cure.
Friday, October 31, 2008
What do YOU Like?
I had alot of fun with this today. I decided I would learn more about myself by writing out my likes and dislikes. Obviously, this is not even close to all of them, but it was alot of fun just getting it out...
Likes:
-Boiled squash
-Dancing, especially to Singing in the Rain or Micheal Buble
-Decaff Coffee with LOTS of cream and sugar
-Getting dressed up
-Twirling rifle
-anything bland
-Salt (I used to eat the rock salt that you use for ice cream straight out of the box)
-Waking up on a cold day with lots of covers on me and feeling warm..Mmmmm it's so nice
-When I have time to do whatever I can imagine
-a clean house (even if that's not how mine is all the time)
-People who do special things for you without really thinking about what's in it for them
-My husband and son, of course, those are a given....I LOVE them!
-Clean fresh blow-dried hair (I'm wierd, I know)
-My diamond journey necklace that I bought myself for mother's day
-water
-hearing stories about old people's childhood....we didn't have electricity back then...
-really fast internet paired with an awesome computer
-A day to do nothing
-An actual conversation with my mother, with no fighting
-pitching softball...even if no one is batting
-singing, even though I suck
-Pretending I'm in a Broadway Musical (hehe)
-Ballroom Dancing, even though I only know the ChaCha and Waltz
-Old home videos
-when my sister and I just sit back and talk
-A few years ago when would we have lunch every Sunday with my family: grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins, great-grandparents....I miss them :(
-Warm sun in the middle of the afternoon through the car window...ahhh naptime...
Dislikes:
-Suck UPs (this is number ONE on my list)
-When people come to your office and just stand there and look at you and you are like....YES?????? Can I help you???
-People who pee on the toilet seat
-The songs: I'm a Barbie Girl and Macarana
-People who take your ideas and use them as your own without giving any credit back to you
-The "N" word
-When people tell you how to raise your children, or when they tell me how to discipline
-Baths
-When Aiden cries for no reason....or won't tell me what he is thinking/wanting (any ideas on this would be welcome, as long as it is advice, not a command)
-Carbonated beverages...I hate the sugary syrup that forms in the back of your throat
-the smell of cigarette smoke
-People who litter-specifically, people who litter with the intent that someone else will pick up....that's laziness and you are no better than anyone else
-people who think they are better than every other human being
-those who think I owe them something just for being who they are
-People who are conversation enders
-People who are addicted to online games (even though I know how it happens because I used to be one of those people)
-less than 8 hours of sleep
-peanut butter
-narcissists (learned this word thanks to TARA!!)
-elitism
Likes:
-Boiled squash
-Dancing, especially to Singing in the Rain or Micheal Buble
-Decaff Coffee with LOTS of cream and sugar
-Getting dressed up
-Twirling rifle
-anything bland
-Salt (I used to eat the rock salt that you use for ice cream straight out of the box)
-Waking up on a cold day with lots of covers on me and feeling warm..Mmmmm it's so nice
-When I have time to do whatever I can imagine
-a clean house (even if that's not how mine is all the time)
-People who do special things for you without really thinking about what's in it for them
-My husband and son, of course, those are a given....I LOVE them!
-Clean fresh blow-dried hair (I'm wierd, I know)
-My diamond journey necklace that I bought myself for mother's day
-water
-hearing stories about old people's childhood....we didn't have electricity back then...
-really fast internet paired with an awesome computer
-A day to do nothing
-An actual conversation with my mother, with no fighting
-pitching softball...even if no one is batting
-singing, even though I suck
-Pretending I'm in a Broadway Musical (hehe)
-Ballroom Dancing, even though I only know the ChaCha and Waltz
-Old home videos
-when my sister and I just sit back and talk
-A few years ago when would we have lunch every Sunday with my family: grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins, great-grandparents....I miss them :(
-Warm sun in the middle of the afternoon through the car window...ahhh naptime...
Dislikes:
-Suck UPs (this is number ONE on my list)
-When people come to your office and just stand there and look at you and you are like....YES?????? Can I help you???
-People who pee on the toilet seat
-The songs: I'm a Barbie Girl and Macarana
-People who take your ideas and use them as your own without giving any credit back to you
-The "N" word
-When people tell you how to raise your children, or when they tell me how to discipline
-Baths
-When Aiden cries for no reason....or won't tell me what he is thinking/wanting (any ideas on this would be welcome, as long as it is advice, not a command)
-Carbonated beverages...I hate the sugary syrup that forms in the back of your throat
-the smell of cigarette smoke
-People who litter-specifically, people who litter with the intent that someone else will pick up....that's laziness and you are no better than anyone else
-people who think they are better than every other human being
-those who think I owe them something just for being who they are
-People who are conversation enders
-People who are addicted to online games (even though I know how it happens because I used to be one of those people)
-less than 8 hours of sleep
-peanut butter
-narcissists (learned this word thanks to TARA!!)
-elitism
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Happiness Found!
Ok, so this is a major update from months and months of not posting.
Life is good. Marriage is wonderful.
Warning, the following is CHEESY and could make you gag:
I have to say that I love Nathaniel Sones! He is the sweetest man I have ever met. I never knew how much I could love someone. Love of your child is the only thing that compares and is so much different than the love you give your spouse. He has my heart. When he is not around, I literally hurt inside. I know that's extreme but I just love being with him. Last week he was in Austin, TX and it was a very hard week to endure.
This relationship has been so much different than any other I have been in, that it is hard to make any comparisons. We don't argue, we are both laid back...while both being a bit stubborn, but somehow, we always agree on things. I think it just takes being with someone that has the same views in life. We always tend to think the same things. It is GREAT!
If you have not found someone that you are completely happy with, my advise to you is, DON'T SETTLE. Don't settle for second best. If there is any part of you at any time that thinks deep down...this just isn't right, then, it's probably not. Granted things aren't always going to be perfect, but if you start your relationship arguing when things are going right, think how things will be when everything is going wrong. You have a to have a good foundation to stand on.
Also, I think it is wonderful that Nate loves Aiden and Aiden loves Nate. Nate is a great role model for Aiden. He is sweet and patient, which is something I lack sometimes (ok, most of the time.) He is also firm when he needs to be, which means Aiden actually listens to him, which helps tremendously when Aiden is running around NOT listening to me.
All-in-all, I am extremely happy. Sometimes I feel like I will burst through my skin with happiness.....Ok I'll stop.....
I wish everyone the best! Just know that there IS someone out there for you, that is PERFECT for YOU. May you have the same luck in finding your perfect someone as I did in finding mine.
Life is good. Marriage is wonderful.
Warning, the following is CHEESY and could make you gag:
I have to say that I love Nathaniel Sones! He is the sweetest man I have ever met. I never knew how much I could love someone. Love of your child is the only thing that compares and is so much different than the love you give your spouse. He has my heart. When he is not around, I literally hurt inside. I know that's extreme but I just love being with him. Last week he was in Austin, TX and it was a very hard week to endure.
This relationship has been so much different than any other I have been in, that it is hard to make any comparisons. We don't argue, we are both laid back...while both being a bit stubborn, but somehow, we always agree on things. I think it just takes being with someone that has the same views in life. We always tend to think the same things. It is GREAT!
If you have not found someone that you are completely happy with, my advise to you is, DON'T SETTLE. Don't settle for second best. If there is any part of you at any time that thinks deep down...this just isn't right, then, it's probably not. Granted things aren't always going to be perfect, but if you start your relationship arguing when things are going right, think how things will be when everything is going wrong. You have a to have a good foundation to stand on.
Also, I think it is wonderful that Nate loves Aiden and Aiden loves Nate. Nate is a great role model for Aiden. He is sweet and patient, which is something I lack sometimes (ok, most of the time.) He is also firm when he needs to be, which means Aiden actually listens to him, which helps tremendously when Aiden is running around NOT listening to me.
All-in-all, I am extremely happy. Sometimes I feel like I will burst through my skin with happiness.....Ok I'll stop.....
I wish everyone the best! Just know that there IS someone out there for you, that is PERFECT for YOU. May you have the same luck in finding your perfect someone as I did in finding mine.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Consequences of Gossip
Wow, been a while. Why is that everytime I want to blog, i'm always in a pissed off mood? Anyway....
I'm just upset at some things at work right now. I better start at the beginning.
Years ago, I was so caught up with gossip. Who did what? What was she wearing? Who's cheating on who? Why did she talk to me like that? ON and ON and ON.......
At that point, I realize that I had gotten roped into the gossip monster. And oh what a monster it is! It took me a LONG time to pull away from that. It is my nature tendency to be nosy. For me, it was very difficult to stop asking every little thing about every little thing. But I did it....
For a while....
And then....
Well, then I got a new job. And with new jobs bring new people. And with new people bring new gossip. And slowly, but surely, I ended back up in the gossip ring. It's like I'm an addict.
And we all know that addicts hit rock bottom...anyway, I've said too much, too many times...and It bit me in the a$$. Imagine that! What a shocker!
So, now, my job is to sit here, and become the human vault. Say nothing to anyone...
Think it will happen? A girl can try right....I need help! ha!
(On a side note, thanks to Kelsey for making me laugh... BP !)
I'm just upset at some things at work right now. I better start at the beginning.
Years ago, I was so caught up with gossip. Who did what? What was she wearing? Who's cheating on who? Why did she talk to me like that? ON and ON and ON.......
At that point, I realize that I had gotten roped into the gossip monster. And oh what a monster it is! It took me a LONG time to pull away from that. It is my nature tendency to be nosy. For me, it was very difficult to stop asking every little thing about every little thing. But I did it....
For a while....
And then....
Well, then I got a new job. And with new jobs bring new people. And with new people bring new gossip. And slowly, but surely, I ended back up in the gossip ring. It's like I'm an addict.
And we all know that addicts hit rock bottom...anyway, I've said too much, too many times...and It bit me in the a$$. Imagine that! What a shocker!
So, now, my job is to sit here, and become the human vault. Say nothing to anyone...
Think it will happen? A girl can try right....I need help! ha!
(On a side note, thanks to Kelsey for making me laugh... BP !)
Thursday, November 8, 2007
On the brighter side
I've posted alot of negative things in the past few months, mainly because my life is crazy right now. So, I figured, I want to post something postive...an ode to all the things going right in my life:
I LOVE my job. After all the drama initially, I can actually say I like going to work. I don't dread it or cry over it anymore. I love working with Jennifer. She is the greatest boss I have ever had (Please God, don't tell her that though lol!) It's just great to have a boss that is not anal HA! She is someone that is professional when she needs to be and is there for you if you just need to talk.
I love working with students. That's something that has always drawn me to the school atmosphere and something I have been missing. Now, I work in a department that gives students opportunites that some would not otherwise have.
Online classes are great! My "department" (if you can call 2 people a department hehe) is a great example of moderation. There are times of complete chaos, stress, and general busy-ness...and more relaxed times. eLearning is constantly growing, and I am excited to be a part of it.
Other than my job, I love my son. He is the absolute biggest joy in my life. He is awesome, intelligent, and makes me laugh everyday. I just love watching him and seeing how much he's grown..and oh, has he grown lol! I love every minute I can spend with him. I can't wait for Christmas...He is going to LOVE it. I think he will understand it more this year, and he already talks about Santa Claus. hehe ...I love that!
And, lastly, I'm glad to have that special someone that is there for me...lets me cry on their shoulder...and just generally understands all my bouncy balls in my head.... hehe :) To you: Thank You! You mean more to me than you know. ;-P
All this in time for Thanksgiving lol!
I LOVE my job. After all the drama initially, I can actually say I like going to work. I don't dread it or cry over it anymore. I love working with Jennifer. She is the greatest boss I have ever had (Please God, don't tell her that though lol!) It's just great to have a boss that is not anal HA! She is someone that is professional when she needs to be and is there for you if you just need to talk.
I love working with students. That's something that has always drawn me to the school atmosphere and something I have been missing. Now, I work in a department that gives students opportunites that some would not otherwise have.
Online classes are great! My "department" (if you can call 2 people a department hehe) is a great example of moderation. There are times of complete chaos, stress, and general busy-ness...and more relaxed times. eLearning is constantly growing, and I am excited to be a part of it.
Other than my job, I love my son. He is the absolute biggest joy in my life. He is awesome, intelligent, and makes me laugh everyday. I just love watching him and seeing how much he's grown..and oh, has he grown lol! I love every minute I can spend with him. I can't wait for Christmas...He is going to LOVE it. I think he will understand it more this year, and he already talks about Santa Claus. hehe ...I love that!
And, lastly, I'm glad to have that special someone that is there for me...lets me cry on their shoulder...and just generally understands all my bouncy balls in my head.... hehe :) To you: Thank You! You mean more to me than you know. ;-P
All this in time for Thanksgiving lol!
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Let's just add one more thing.....
When life gives you lemons...make lemonade; But what do you do when it gives you ROTTEN lemons, and LOADS of them?
I'm very upset about something that happened last night. I think of myself as a very caring person, yes, i'm blunt and brutal sometimes, but in the end, I am very dedicated and loyal to my friends. It takes alot to make me so mad at you that I would never talk to you again. I guess my mistake is thinking that others are the same way. There are some that get highly irate at something that could be worked out. It drives me crazy. Life is too short to go wild over something like that.
Another different but related issue having somewhat to deal with the divorce: We all know how seperation between two people go. "Let's still be friends" is something rarely followed through with. And if you are friends with THEIR friends...well, you know that would never work out, as much as you want it to. I can think of so many times that I said....I lost all my friends. I miss so-and-so.....I don't have anyone to hang out with. But what you don't realize, is how many friends you actually have...that is, until you lose the connection to those friends.
I am the type of person to have the same friends as the person I am with. Which is why I have very very few friends of my own that have been by my side through it all. (Love you Chellie!) Now that I am seperated...I am also seperate from the people who I talked to and hung out with and depended on....now that's tough!
So, now I'm going through withdrawals...I miss having friends to hang out with and people to just cut up with. I miss those friends. I hope they are reading this. And worst of all, I miss the girls...(they know who they are). They are sweethearts and I care for them so much.
8.....(
Anyway, I miss you guys and I hope you read this......
I'm very upset about something that happened last night. I think of myself as a very caring person, yes, i'm blunt and brutal sometimes, but in the end, I am very dedicated and loyal to my friends. It takes alot to make me so mad at you that I would never talk to you again. I guess my mistake is thinking that others are the same way. There are some that get highly irate at something that could be worked out. It drives me crazy. Life is too short to go wild over something like that.
Another different but related issue having somewhat to deal with the divorce: We all know how seperation between two people go. "Let's still be friends" is something rarely followed through with. And if you are friends with THEIR friends...well, you know that would never work out, as much as you want it to. I can think of so many times that I said....I lost all my friends. I miss so-and-so.....I don't have anyone to hang out with. But what you don't realize, is how many friends you actually have...that is, until you lose the connection to those friends.
I am the type of person to have the same friends as the person I am with. Which is why I have very very few friends of my own that have been by my side through it all. (Love you Chellie!) Now that I am seperated...I am also seperate from the people who I talked to and hung out with and depended on....now that's tough!
So, now I'm going through withdrawals...I miss having friends to hang out with and people to just cut up with. I miss those friends. I hope they are reading this. And worst of all, I miss the girls...(they know who they are). They are sweethearts and I care for them so much.
8.....(
Anyway, I miss you guys and I hope you read this......
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Limits of a Person
How much can a person take in life? I think God gave us a huge threshold to withstand obstacles and trials that happen in our lives, but I can think of so many times that I thought "Oh my gosh, when is this going to get better?"
I can see a small teeny tiny light at the end of an endless tunnel at this point...we are talking pinhole size here....but I have reached the point I'm fed up with the current situation. I'm ready to have money (that's the biggest part of the problem.), ready to get out of my parents house, have no debt, have more time, patience....................ready for my divorce to be final......
Everyone says, give it time and things will work out, and I am the biggest believer in that: used to say it all the time. BUT I think people say that when they are not going through the toughest time in their life. It's one thing to tell someone else that, another to actually live it.
So my question is...how do I deal? Seriously...I'm asking??? I'm up for suggestions. I know I sound like a freaking mental case right now...and maybe I've gotten to that point.
I know, in the end, I will come out of this a better stronger woman. I have been in bad situations before and they have made me who I am. I am confident, independent, and intelligent. (no comment needed on that..thanks.) I know this will make me more determined to get what I want and to work hard to get it. So, in the mean time...I'm taking one day at a time....
(I hate that saying btw.....)
I can see a small teeny tiny light at the end of an endless tunnel at this point...we are talking pinhole size here....but I have reached the point I'm fed up with the current situation. I'm ready to have money (that's the biggest part of the problem.), ready to get out of my parents house, have no debt, have more time, patience....................ready for my divorce to be final......
Everyone says, give it time and things will work out, and I am the biggest believer in that: used to say it all the time. BUT I think people say that when they are not going through the toughest time in their life. It's one thing to tell someone else that, another to actually live it.
So my question is...how do I deal? Seriously...I'm asking??? I'm up for suggestions. I know I sound like a freaking mental case right now...and maybe I've gotten to that point.
I know, in the end, I will come out of this a better stronger woman. I have been in bad situations before and they have made me who I am. I am confident, independent, and intelligent. (no comment needed on that..thanks.) I know this will make me more determined to get what I want and to work hard to get it. So, in the mean time...I'm taking one day at a time....
(I hate that saying btw.....)
Friday, July 6, 2007
Blahness
Ok, first off....can any word be made into a feeling by adding "ness" on the end of it? LOL! HAHA...in my own little world, that's a rule, dang it!
Anyway, I'm feeling a little blah today...actually for like the past week. Just thought if I typed it out it would get me out of it..haha! It's funny how just typing something can make you feel better. Wouldn't that be great for like stomach viruses or something?
Ever heard that saying: "Be careful what you wish for...you just might get it..." HAHA! It is so true. Just because we want something, doesn't mean it's gonna come in the WAY we want it. Perfect scenario...Ok...tired with the old job. I hope and pray for a new one, well, and more money..but that's a given. Anyway, so I pray that it will work out, and BAM here comes an opportunity. Ok, so I'm an idiot to say NO. More money...heck yeah! I was all excited. So it wasn't as much as I think I SHOULD make...especially for someone with a degree...(which means nothing in this world nowadays..btw) but it was still a significant pay increase.
Anyway, so anyone who knows me knows that I thrive off people...not necessarily stress....but more people contact than anything. I was getting that with the old job...of course stress came with the territory, but I could talk to people everyday. So I move to the new job...and OMG...how BORING!!! So I'm all bummed out.
Then one day, DING! Light bulb went off.....what did i wish for again? A new job, new opportunity. Did I get what i wanted? YES! So what is God trying to tell me? Be patient...and it's boring for a reason...GET YOUR MASTER'S DEGREE ....this will give you time to work on it hehe :)
So I guess this goes back to trusting God. I should do more of that :)
Anyway, I'm feeling a little blah today...actually for like the past week. Just thought if I typed it out it would get me out of it..haha! It's funny how just typing something can make you feel better. Wouldn't that be great for like stomach viruses or something?
Ever heard that saying: "Be careful what you wish for...you just might get it..." HAHA! It is so true. Just because we want something, doesn't mean it's gonna come in the WAY we want it. Perfect scenario...Ok...tired with the old job. I hope and pray for a new one, well, and more money..but that's a given. Anyway, so I pray that it will work out, and BAM here comes an opportunity. Ok, so I'm an idiot to say NO. More money...heck yeah! I was all excited. So it wasn't as much as I think I SHOULD make...especially for someone with a degree...(which means nothing in this world nowadays..btw) but it was still a significant pay increase.
Anyway, so anyone who knows me knows that I thrive off people...not necessarily stress....but more people contact than anything. I was getting that with the old job...of course stress came with the territory, but I could talk to people everyday. So I move to the new job...and OMG...how BORING!!! So I'm all bummed out.
Then one day, DING! Light bulb went off.....what did i wish for again? A new job, new opportunity. Did I get what i wanted? YES! So what is God trying to tell me? Be patient...and it's boring for a reason...GET YOUR MASTER'S DEGREE ....this will give you time to work on it hehe :)
So I guess this goes back to trusting God. I should do more of that :)
Sunday, June 10, 2007
If It's Meant to Be, It Will Be
I say that alot: If it's meant to be, it will be. And wow, how things work out sometimes. I think life is a good combination of fate and decisions that you make in your life. Honestly, it's hard to know what I truly believe at this point in my life, because so much has happened, even in the past month, and situations change people. I DO think I am a different person right now than I was even 2 months ago.
It's kind of strange. There was a point in my life that I thought that everything was planned out, and then there are times that I think that I am the one who decides what happens in my life...good or bad...it's all up to me. Maybe we just think that we are making all the decisions in our lives, independent of everything, but really God knows everything and knows every move you make, regardless of how shocking it is to you. I don't know. Honestly, it doesn't matter to me. It kind of scares me to think that everything is planned out, but then maybe that's a good thing. My biggest fear is not knowing what will happen in my life. Oh, to be God and know everything hehe :)
Anyway, I believe that when it involves important things, God knows what will happen. Maybe he doesn't care what kind of soda you drink right now, or what type of shoes you buy...but when it comes to your career..for example...then I think He plays a bigger part in that.
Honestly, I'm grasping at straws....cause I don't really know. All I know, is that things tend to work out, given the right amount of time. I have always said that. I think humans in general tend to be a little impatient and try to rush things to get them to go their way, but if we will just sit back, and relax, sometimes the best things are worth the wait and patience pays off.
It's kind of strange. There was a point in my life that I thought that everything was planned out, and then there are times that I think that I am the one who decides what happens in my life...good or bad...it's all up to me. Maybe we just think that we are making all the decisions in our lives, independent of everything, but really God knows everything and knows every move you make, regardless of how shocking it is to you. I don't know. Honestly, it doesn't matter to me. It kind of scares me to think that everything is planned out, but then maybe that's a good thing. My biggest fear is not knowing what will happen in my life. Oh, to be God and know everything hehe :)
Anyway, I believe that when it involves important things, God knows what will happen. Maybe he doesn't care what kind of soda you drink right now, or what type of shoes you buy...but when it comes to your career..for example...then I think He plays a bigger part in that.
Honestly, I'm grasping at straws....cause I don't really know. All I know, is that things tend to work out, given the right amount of time. I have always said that. I think humans in general tend to be a little impatient and try to rush things to get them to go their way, but if we will just sit back, and relax, sometimes the best things are worth the wait and patience pays off.
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